To infinity and beyond!

Why is it that everytime I go to Disneyland I get warm mushy feelings inside me about my boyfriend and I? Duh! It's Disneyland. But beside that, he makes me feel nice about myself, which is a hard thing to do. I mean truly nice. Usually I feel like shit about myself because I feel like a fat slob. But not him. He treats me like a person. Like I matter. That's more than I can say about my family. Sometimes they say such stupid shit to me. I don't even know if they notice the things that they say to me. It's all suttle things but I always pick up on them... even if I don't want to. I never want to. Thanks, I know my hair is fugly and my pants are ripped. I know I have no job, thank you for reminding me that I don't have one. Forget that I used to work, according to them I never worked and I never will. How stupid is that? "Aimee's never gunna work a day in her life." Fuck you guys, I'm going home... That's usually my cue to leave. I can't stand that crap. Nevermind that my aunt who could easily weigh over 200 lbs. constantly tells me that it is I, Aimee, who is a fat ass bitch. Riiiiiiiight. That makes a who lot of sense. Or my mom who hates her job and hates working and hates that she didn't go to school and finish (because of me... but that's another day) wants me to quit school (which I love) to get a job now because she knows I'll hate it.. or something.. I don't even know sometimes. I mean she hates her job, and her husband tells her to quit and go to school. But she'd rather just bitch about it and not do anything. But I think she's scared. She's scared because at work she knows everything; she's been there for about 20 years. And if she were to go back to school, she would have to start from the bottom up, from scratch, knowing some but maybe not enough... But that's just a cop out of hers. She's smarter than that.. but she's to set in her ways to change... oh well.

Disneyland was so much fun yesterday. Nevermind the fact that we left at 4 pm and got there at 6 pm because of traffic or the fact that we really only rode 5 rides... we laughed at angry people in flip flops and kids crying about toys. And we walked around and looked at all the pretty lights.



I love Disneyland.

I love going with loved ones like my boyfriend. But mostly I love my boyfriend. That sounds lame. Carlos is so much different than any other guy I dated... He doesn't yell at me like Miley, cry like Twig, or act like an abusive dick like Andrew.

He's really nice to me. He hugs me all the time. He kisses me all the time. He holds my hand when its slippery outside so I won't fall. He buys my tampons when I'm too cranky to go to the store. He brings me chocolate when I'm feeling sad. He doesn't let me stress out about unnecessary things like Valentine's Day or Christmas presents. He makes me laugh. I love him. He does so many things.. I wouldn't be able to name them all in one place. But all that mushyness aside... He's a dork. Ha ha ha.

I wouldn't give him up for anything.

Yesterday there was this lady at Disneyland who was super pissed at her "man" because I guess he must have told her that he would bring her shoes and then he didn't so she only had flip flops and it was raining. And there were puddles everywhere. It was the funniest. She was so pissed!

Lady: Oh you want a chili dog?
Man: Yeah, you never think of me and what I want. You just want everything your way. I want a damn chili dog, I don't want none of this shit.
Lady: Oh I don't respect your feelings? I don't give a shit about you? I'll do whatever you want but hey look at me! My feet are fucking freezing but I still walked my ass over here in the rain to get your fucking chili dog.
Man: Well you shouldn't have worn those, you should have worn real shoes!
Lady: I KNOW!! BUT YOU SAID YOU WOULD BRING MY DAMN NIKE'S AND YOU FUCKING DIDN'T BECAUSE YOU WERE TOO BUSY TALKING TO THAT HOE SO YOU FORGOT THAT YOUR LADY NEEDED HER SHOES!
Man: Well that shit ain't my fault. I was obviously busy.

Hahahahaha... Damn we laughed so hard. Then I turned to him and said, "Thanks for buying me socks because my mocassins got soaked. You're the best. I love you."

"When you are in love you can't fall alseep because reality is better than your dreams." -Dr. Suess